Never Nothing to Write

Every time I think I’m going to run out of things to write, something happens to remind me that this work is hard and ongoing and there are too many assholes out there to name. Forever 21 will decide to start sending diet bars to their online customers or there’ll be another awesome t-shirt that doesn’t come in anything like my size or one of a thousand other microaggressions that might come our way. As of this writing, I have been doing this blog twice a week for 3 months and I haven’t even scratched the surface of all the things there are to talk about. I am so, so grateful to everyone who has shared and commented and encouraged me so far.

Being in a fat body is hard work, and sometimes it gets the better of the best of us. Today was a hard day for me. One knee in particular decided to be problematic and cause me lots of pain. I didn’t manage to accomplish everything I wanted to and it left me feeling defeated.

Body positivity doesn’t mean you are going to love your body all the time. Sometimes it is enough to get through a day with your soul and spirit intact and you need to celebrate that. And when you can’t is when you need the members of your fat community to step in and help lift you up, remind you that there are too many assholes in the world, and give you the strength to face tomorrow. Because if you can celebrate your body each day, even a little (even when everything hurts), it makes the world so much easier to take.